Reflection

I felt sorry for my blog because I can't post consistently. And sory for some of the promised entry that I couldn't keep. 

Having a lots of up's and down's lately. I'm taking almost everything personally and emotionally. Its almost consume me to the deep depression. Lucky I can control my emotion a bit in front of the public (my friend specifically). hehe everything vomit here. Feeling loved, fall in love, broken relationship are the biggest emotion that I have been struggling with, as you guys have seen here in previous posts. It's not easy. I always say that I am responsible for the choices that I have made. And I can't understand why I always choose the wrong path. My choices always make my heart weighs heavy. I should be more selfish sometimes. The problem is I always thinking for other people need which is sometimes make my decision favor them but its burden me. Been trained for that since childhood. *sigh* Need to wake up now. 

Lord, guide and help me because I'm afraid I can't stand the great waves of life esspecially through this season of lent. I'm afraid that I might lose control of my self. May i always remain open to serving you through acts of love and compassion. May those around me come to know and believe in you through my own generous acts of giving and kindness.I ask this through Jesus our Lord and Savior. Amen.

Feeling Blue

Que Sera, Sera,

Whatever will be, will be

The future’s not ours to see.

Que Sera, Sera.

another failed love story, ruined before its begins..

my bad...easily fall in love, easily touched..

I confess, I care, I hope, I wait...

until it hurt myself..

am tired of waiting for an answer.

Let him go, let him go

turn my back and slam the door of my heart..

it's frozen.

*sorry can't keep my promise today.....I'm just feeling blue..feel cheated... 

singing in the rain..hmm hahaha that sounds fun!

hmm adios

still feeling blue,

dadaiJ.

Belated new year greetings

halloo...haha I know I'm late with my happy new year's wishes, 

still I wanna wish you guys a very happy new year 2014..May The Year 2014 Bring for You,

Happiness,Success and filled with Peace,

Hope & Togetherness of your Family & Friends.

Say goodbye to year 2013 and welcome to new year 2014!!..

and my wish and hope also the same :

May The Year 2014 Bring for me

Happiness,Success and filled with Peace,

Hope & Togetherness of my Family & Friends.

hurrmm so much draft post lately..do know why, lack of inspiration maybe + poor internet connection discourage me to continue blogging..*sigh*

I should apply for a new broadband...orr maybe buy myself the 

iPhone 5s with the mobile internet plan as suggested by my best friend...I not the fan of gadget, I always think that as long as I have a mobile phone to contact others, it's enough...haha also am not the fan for luxurious thing..I always say that "as long as I have it, then it's enough"...no luxurious car, it's okay, no luxurious mobile phone, it's okay...as long as I have what is call 'car' or 'mobile phone', it is enough for me..

see, how easy to satisfy me. This kind of attitude sometimes make me a little bit passive. Sometimes no courage to earn more, the word 'enough' easily reach and satisfy me. Not demanding to earn more.

However, today I realize that the words 'enough' has been in control of my life since I got my job. I feel easily satisfy, even though in reality what I gain today is actually still not enough, especially to repay my parent's sacrifice for me. 

So I'm thinking, for this new year I should change my point of view. Maybe  my achievement is enough for me now, but not for my future life and not for my family.

no harm to be a little bit greedy bha kan...haha am not greedy for money la, greedy and demanding for better achievement and improvement in life lorr.

There still a lot of things I wanna do for my family and for myself also. Family house, family car, DSLR camera for me, travelling of course and help my sibling to complete their study and dot..dot..meaning I have a lot of wish, will, dream that I haven't achieve a.k.a accomplish.

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.

Anatole France

French novelist (1844 - 1924)

 

aja aja fighting!!! ^__^

Believe in yourself and live your dream!

Have a wonderful New Year!

Till then!

**2013 most memorable event - 26 Dis - the best thanksgiving party ever- soon will share it with you guys..adios**