Reflection

I felt sorry for my blog because I can't post consistently. And sory for some of the promised entry that I couldn't keep. 

Having a lots of up's and down's lately. I'm taking almost everything personally and emotionally. Its almost consume me to the deep depression. Lucky I can control my emotion a bit in front of the public (my friend specifically). hehe everything vomit here. Feeling loved, fall in love, broken relationship are the biggest emotion that I have been struggling with, as you guys have seen here in previous posts. It's not easy. I always say that I am responsible for the choices that I have made. And I can't understand why I always choose the wrong path. My choices always make my heart weighs heavy. I should be more selfish sometimes. The problem is I always thinking for other people need which is sometimes make my decision favor them but its burden me. Been trained for that since childhood. *sigh* Need to wake up now. 

Lord, guide and help me because I'm afraid I can't stand the great waves of life esspecially through this season of lent. I'm afraid that I might lose control of my self. May i always remain open to serving you through acts of love and compassion. May those around me come to know and believe in you through my own generous acts of giving and kindness.I ask this through Jesus our Lord and Savior. Amen.