Working dilemma

Again I'm thinking that my current job does not suit me.

I'm bored with the same routine. Am tired with the do and don't rules. I hate when the superior pushing me to achieve certain target and most of all I hate when some of them not being a supportive leader. Some of them only care if they can take advantage of the situation. Working environment also not encouraging.

 The conclusion is I'm not satisfied with my job. 

Then why applied for it in the first place?  

My family is not wealthy, with lotsa sibling (9 of us) and being the 2nd eldest of all...I gotta grab any chances in front of me...especially a secure job..I'm not even thinking what kind of job I'll be doing and will I love it or not...no even a second thought! Getting a secure job as soon as possible is the only thing that I keep in mind. F*** the interest and my dream job!   

Credit to : someecards

I'm not complaining about my responsibility as the eldest daughter/2nd eldest of all though. And my siblings are not my burden, it's a family responsibility. I'm just hope that they did not take everything that we do/give to them for granted. My wish for them to success in life, so that they can help our family and share the responsibility. But it's fear me when some of my sibling are too overwhelmed with the tech and gadget. It's fear me when some of  them thinking just for themselves.

Macam-macam ragam. Hmmm mybe it just part of growing up, right?

Dear siblings, be wise with the choices you made...

Lets say the situation is good enough for me to choose my interest/passion over my current job, of course I'll go with my passion. You might think I'm crazy if I say my interest is towards farming @ agricultural field but that's what I wish to do in my life...both my parent are farmer, and I know it's a hardcore field especially for woman but I like  it...I love it. Agricultural is a business, and the demand for the natural/organic farm product is growing fast. I dream to have my own fresh grocery store : sometimes I think it's too high for me to reach....waayy to high...but I will keep dreaming, at the same time work on it step by step...progressing too slow but its okay.

I've been talking to hubby about this on and on, of course he is very supportive but it's not the time yet to leave my job for that ambition/wish. Slowly start with a small project and when thing takes off I should leave. Ahhh leaving my job without having any alternatives might be a bad idea especially when most of the responsibilities involving money. Fuuhh..yeaah money is a big deal!

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Till then bloggers.