It gonna be a looongg hiatus for blogging. Motherhood life really consumed me 😅. Soon, there's gonna be 2 minie me in the house...1 more month to go. Life been busy, stressful, hectic...ahh I've been transferred to KK early Jun this year and at the same time my husband got his Master in UNIMAS Kuching. And that's the reason of the stressful and hectic motherhood life. Sometimes I feel like I'm a single mother because the hubby only able to come once or twice a month. 

 I'm on 36th weeks of my second pregnancy...

And my girl is 1 year 3 months old...super manja, maybe because she can feel that soon she's gonna be 'akka'..

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You know I'm no good - Amy Winehouse

All time favourite songs💓

You know I'm no good
Songwriters : Amy Winehouse

Singer : Amy Winehouse

Meet you downstairs in the bar and hurt

Your rolled up sleeves in your skull t-shirt

You say 'What did you do with him today?'

And sniffed me out like I was Tanqueray

'Cause you're my fella my guy

Hand me your Stella and fly

By the time I'm out the door

You tear men down like Roger Moore

Chorus :

I cheated myself

Like I knew I would

I told you I was trouble

You know that I'm no good

Upstairs in bed with my ex boy

He's in a place but I can't get joy

Thinking on you in the final throes

This is when my buzzer goes

Run out to meet you, chips and pitta

You say 'when we married'

'cause you're not bitter

'There'll be none of him no more'

I cried for you on the kitchen floor

I cheated myself

Like I knew I would

I told you I was trouble

You know that I'm no good

Sweet reunion Jamaica and Spain

We're like how we were again

I'm in the tub, you on the seat

Lick your lips as I soap my feet

Then you notice like carpet burn

My stomach drop and my guts churn

You shrug and it's the worst

Who truly stuck the knife in first

I cheated myself

Like I knew I would

I told you I was trouble

You know that I'm no good

I cheated myself

Like I knew I would

I told you I was trouble

You know that I'm no good.

*I really love the acoustic version of this song. Gonna add guitar chord...hmmm maybe someday. 😅

Exotic Food : Smoked Wild Boar Meat@Sinalau Bakas

Location : Himbaan Bongol, Tamparuli

Search 'Sinalau Bakas Himbaan Bongol' at Facebook to see the location.

Takano Linopot (steamed brown rice wrapped in leaves), BBQ wild boar (dipped in soy sauce + chili paste + lime) and beer 😋😋😋

Perfect weekend gateaway!

Btw, they got other dishes too like Bakuteh and wild boar soup.

Don't forget the smoked wild boar. Have your own wild boar Bakuteh/soup/stew at home for dinner. Yummm.

Wild Boar head

Kadang-kadang, some people sell the pork meat instead of wild boar meat (maybe they run out of stocks but don't want go out of business). So, before buying make sure to check that the meat they sell is really wild boar meat. There're big differences you know. In this picture, the head is a proof that they sell wild boar meat. 

Perfect place to have some nice BBQ boar and beers. Meanwhile, enjoy the view and the cold breeze. 😵

**strictly NON HALAL

I wanna go home - Lyric

Michael Buble - I wanna go home

Lyrics

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I want to go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just want to go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it?s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I want to go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I want to come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not 
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come 
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I want to go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

Current mood - I wanna go home and hug you 😢😢I miss you a lot.

Mogot nogi pakadada om pologoson nopo

Source : http://quoteswords.com/30-quotes-about-letting-go/

I'm the big sister and I'm used to 'membebel' to my younger siblings.

Source : http://www.theponderingnook.com/

But kalau ada tompinai yang selfish and think that dia betuuuul, apa yang dia buat semua betuuul and inda fikir effect dia sama family sendiri. Pologoson nopo. Nosooot pomusarahan, amu noilaan iri agama baru dau matu ajaran miagal di. Napasaaan oku no moi ponasihat tulun amu karati. Level pomusarahan dalam kotak bah. Bah om pologoson nopo la, kasadar ie matu kasadar no. Amu tagal mintong nunu agama mangajar mupus koluarga om monghormat do molohing boh. Tulun pia aiso agama nga karati ie komoyon. Bah ingkaa no. Ko hidup la dalam dunia ko sendiri kabo.

I've done my part. 

Durian Hunting Trip - Ranau Sabah

Durian Hunting at Ranau, Sabah
Lucky ada anti bejual juga disana. So booked a few Durians from her (Mas Pahang, D24, Tembaga), dengan harga kasih sayang lagi. 😋😋

My Aunt punya gerai di Ranau.

Opening the Mas Pahang Durian

Will go for Durian Hunting again next month. My aunt said "belum lagi puncak musim durian ni".
So, belum terlambat lagi kalau mau jalan-jalan cari durian sini Sabah.

Pregnancy, Labor and delivery - Ouick Recap

Hello 2018! Happy new year!

 Its been 6 months since the last post. wahh for 6 months I lost myself in motherhood. 

👶 Lessons learnt - Never underestimate the challenges of being a new parent especially for the first 3 months. After that semua jadi rutin sudah la, so tidak terasa sangat beban. 

Bah, just a quick recap of my labor and delivery :

1.  Epidural?
No
2. Father in the room?
Yes. Infact, he was the one who conducted the delivery and sambut our baby.
3. Induced?
Yup, twice 😅. I was hoping for normal contraction rather than induced but I was 8 days overdue and no sign of labor. Sia-sia saja cuti 1 minggu awal 😓. I ate pineapple, do squat everyday, ML, go walking to induce contraction...nothing..tiada satu pun berkesan. 
4. Know the sex beforehand?
 Yes.
5. Due Date?
26 Jun 2017
6. Birth Date?
05.07.2017 @ 11.15pm
7. Morning sickness?
No.
8. Cravings?
Nothing specific. Kuat makan la terutama pork dishes.
9. Kilos gained?
17.5Kg
10. Sex of the baby?
Baby Girl. 
11. Place you gave birth?
P Hospital
12. Hours in labor Room?
App 2 and a half days la. Berapa jam la tu? Almost 60hours kali..
13. Baby's weight?
3.15 Kg 
14. Baby's Name?
Rhea Allysha
15. Most memorable event during the labor/birth :
I think being induced, the excruciating back pain during contraction, tahan tu perasaan mau terbiraaaak sudah sebab belum fully dilated tu normal la bagi semua ibu yang pernah mengalami  especially yg first pregnancy. But what happen after labor was the most traumatic experience for me 😢. Kamu rasa apa aaa?...jahitan terbuka? benang tertinggal? kapas tertinggal dalam?...noooo...JARUM tertinggal dalam jahitan 😱😱😱 Terus begegar tuttt bila ingat balik ni. Sudah la jahitan longgar because bengkak tu tuttt masa jahit, tetinggal lagi 1 batang jarum dalam jahitan. For 1 week I kept asking my husband, how come boleh tertinggal jarum? Sa inda dapat terima ni kesilapan begitu boleh berlaku. Terpaksa tahan nyilu kena jahit balik, sampai menangis-nangis ni 😢. First week after labor memang sangat-sangat stressful. Me and my baby masuk wad lagi for three days because baby jaundice, then after discharge saya pula kena jahit balik.

Second most memorable ialah induced part. Induced 4th july, app 7.00am. After a few hour, macm tiada juga ni contraction. Then tengahari, my hubby take me for a walk, naik turun tangga - to induce the contraction la konon...hmmm disappointed, no effect at all. Hubby said "probably this Dusun people aa too tough". That's why kunun lambat tu contraction datang. Don't know la. First induce macam tiada kesan, contraction ada juga tapi tiada rasa sakit ni..
Besoknya awal pagi (5.7.2017) induce lagi untuk kali kedua, nah this was the moment of truth (tapi ini pun lama juga tunggu baru ada contraction)...gila punya sakit, macam mau patah tu belakang. Hubby pun stress, sekejap berdiri sekejap duduk. Saya pun sometimes marah-marah dia bah bila tu cotraction datang, rasa geram ada, rasa mau tumbuk orang pun ada. Part tunggu fully dilated lagi bikin stress sebab mau tahan tu rasa mau berak kan. Apa pun thanks a lot sama staf-staf sana LR sebab bagi semangat sepanjang proses ni. Of course inda lupa my hubby 😘😘 I'm strong because you were there with me. After tahan-menahan, korek mengorek 😅 I delivered my beautiful baby at 11.15pm. Yay! 

16. Feeling being a new mother?
The moment they put the baby on me, I forgot all the pain that I have gone through for a while. So beautiful. The life that I carried for 9 months plus was infront of my eyes, in my arms. That is my greatest achievement - Giving birth to life. 

17. Mau mengandung lagi ka?
Of course. Trauma for a while saja bah. Next, baby boy.Amen.😀

Thats all saja la cerita beranak ni. Apa-apa pun, bagi saya tu sakit sementara saja bah. Yang penting ada orang-orang tersayang bagi semangat (penting masa berpantang) semua pun okay bah. Jadi jangan kamu telampau takut tu mau beranak.

Bah, Till then.